Well This is DEPRESSING........LONG

DSRTEGL

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I have LITERALLY not been fishing since October of last year.......Thousands of dollars in gear.......Including some Abu Garcia Pro Rockets and Okuma Alaris Spinning Reels, a 14' 2-piece Tica Salmon/Steelhead Spinning Rod that is still a virgin.......and it is all collecting dust and cobwebs......IT SUCKS.........I am one of those "Essential Workers" you hear about....So I have been FORCED to work a lot of OT.......I also work at a Medical Center and have a High Risk of Exposure......So that is why I haven't taken people up on their invites to go fishing........I REFUSE to put people at risk if I can avoid it.........The invites are appreciated.......BELIEVE ME........But there it is.......Some of you have kids.....Some have older family members in your care........and for me.......FISHING IS SOCIAL..........Fishing alone is ok.......But getting out with friends and having a good time is where it is really about with me.......So.....Once things get more back to normal........I am geared up to make get-togethers a bit more fun.......Portable Stoves.....Portable BBQ......BIG COOLER.........

Now on a more serious note........Depression is a BEAST under stressful situations like this.........I am a 30 year recovering alcoholic that was doing well until all this hit.........My mom's poor health, my girlfriend got the virus and nearly DIED.........Lost way too many good friends to either their personal demons or the virus as well.......So I went from doing well to nearly circling the drain.......I am still sober.......Thanks to a solid team behind me.......But I am hitting online meetings several times a week to help me keep my sanity....and SOBRIETY.............I have also GAINED OVER 20 POUNDS..........That is what being a good cook stuck at home on your off hours can do to you........Some drink more, some get deeper in to chemical or herbal dependency, I EAT.......

If you have issues with depression or chemical dependency OF ANY KIND.........Don't keep it a secret.......GET HELP.........Seeking help is not a sign of weakness........It is a sign that your are still sane.......I lost 3 close friends to suicide so far this year and it has hit me HARD........It hit their families harder........GET help.......Talk to your Priest.....Talk to a Trusted Friend......Talk to SOMEONE.......Life IS still worth living ...... Even in these BLEEPED up conditions.........BE STRONG........and take a step toward a positive change in you life.........

Sorry to get so serious........But there are a lot of good damn people on this board.........and we need to keep it that way.......

I will start posting tackle reviews, lure and weight making threads and such when the COVID allows

I BID YOU PEACE.......

Derek
 
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